Friday, September 30, 2011

the "hello-there-three-day-weekend" high

AHHHHHHH!
I just got off of work.
Well, actually about like 4 hours ago (I work the night shift, 7p-7a) but anyways, I have the whole weekend off. Off off off!! No leaking foleys or bed alarms going off, or Duonebs or wet briefs or 3+ pitting edema or charting left accounts for a whole 3 days! And I don't know about you, but I'm pretty pumped! I don't know if it is just a nurse thing, or just a working-nights-thing, but I seem to get this natural high when I get off work. I could of had the most exhausting night at work and can be dreaming of my bed the entire night, but the moment I punch my employee number into that computer to clock out, knowing that I don't have to come back the next night, I serrriously catch a second wind. I get giddy, I want to jump up and kick my heels together, I want to call up that adorable Mediflight nurse that I saw last night and tell him that I love him, I want to have deep conversations with all of my best friends, I want to make exotic things for supper, I want to sing to every single song on the radio, I want a mojito with my breakfast burrito, I want to buy every song on Itunes, I want to paint my fingernails turquoise, rent all the movies from the Redbox, steal every single color of paint chips from Walmart, and buy plane tickets. It's a dangerous feeling, but just dangerous enough to be exhilarating.
And it is not that I don't like my job! I actually love my job, and the people I work with! But there is just something about leaving that hospital that feels sooo freeeing and refreshing and energizing.
I usually lose this high after eating some breakfast, changing into my comfy clothes, and reality hits with a list of "productive" things that I neeeed to get done that day--laundry, supper, cleaning, etc. Ugh. Then, I go into a rebound "low" and all I want to do is be alone and sleep and be braless and pantless in my bed catching up on last night's Greys Anatomy episodes while drifting in and out of sleep/conciousness. My high does not last long, but it is honestly one of the best feelings in the wooooorld.
ANWAYS.
Here is a list of other "natural highs" in life, aka, feelings that make me forget everything wrong in my life and make me just want to pee my pants because I am so happy! (Some are more short-lived than others, haha)
Here we go:
-When it is a crisp, clear 68-degree september evening and I can wear a hoodie with shorts. (Honestly, its just sooo satisfying.)
-When I need to buy something, and go to the store only to find out that they are having a sale on JUST what I need.
-When I admit something weird or quirky about myself to someone, and they say "NO way, me too!!"
-When I finally kill that stupid fly with the first swat of the fly-swatter.
-When I live life with painted nails.
-When I make a new recipe and it actually comes out looking exactly like the picture.
-When I walk away from a class knowing that I ACED a test that I studied my butt off for.
-When I find a song on Itunes that says exactly what is on my heart but I couldn't put into words.
-When I accidentally get a nice tan, when I wasn't expecting or trying to get one.
-When I slip into cool, freshly washed sheets...mmmmhhhhh.
-When I get a perfect IV on the first stick, after a patient has just gone over "what a hard stick he is" (which isn't very often, haha)
-When I dine outside at a restaurant and it is not windy.
-When I surprise myself.
-When I have just poured out my heart to someone, and I feel completely understood.
-When the UPS man delivers the things that I ordered from Target.com and I tear open the box and it is EXACTLY what I wanted.
-The feeling I get after doing hard, manual labor, shower, and go to bed feeling exhausted, but in a good way, like I truly deserve a good night's sleep.
-When I am driving in the rain and depressing songs about rain come on the radio. (i dont know why, but I loooove that feeling.)
-When I get a new mix CD from one of my best friends and I feel like they are right beside me when I listen to it.
-When it snows and it is completely still and silent outside.
-When I catch a fish after having my hook in the water for only like, 3 minutes.
-When people ask for the recipe for something that I cooked because they love it so much.

Ahhh! I'm getting a natural high just re-reading over this list!!

But alas, my "hello-there-three-day-weekend" high has now faded.
I'm exhausted.
So exhausted. And ready for bed.
I am too tired to even think of a cute little ending to this post.
I am annoyed at all the dirty scrubs I have to wash today,
and annoyed at myself for still being awake.
That's the thing about being high, I guess. It can only last for so long.
Whew.
GOOOOOODNIGGGHT.

1 comment:

  1. kate. i just want to tell you how much i love you and this post. i CANNOT wait to see you.

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